"The music came up, and for awhile, nothing happened as I continued my deep, circular breathing....then I added some movement, and all hell started to break loose.....I began by forcefully clearing everyone else's energies out of my field, making room for my work to begin...."
Where Thursday's Breathwork was (for me....every one's experience is different) about showing me places that I hadn't finished healing from earlier wounds and about showing me where I had not stepped up into my full masculine power, yesterday's breathwork was about healing and reclamation. I believe I re-birthed, not once, but twice, fighting my way from the floor to standing erect, taking two men (floorwalkers) with me who were trying to hold me down and provide resistance. There was no way they could stop me. Other floorwalkers and my co-journeyer, moved to the side, afraid they'd get caught up in this powerful struggle. Sweating, screaming, crying, laughing, this was all about standing in my masculine strength, allowing it to surface to its full potential.
"I pushed through the weight of the men restraining me...they were powerless before me. But rather than throwing them off of me, I carried them with me in fearless compassion, as I stood erect, my strength unstoppable...it was as if I were a giant lingham, standing hard and erect, but as a skilled lover who knows when to be strong and when to be soft, as they are different sides of the same coin..."
There is no doubt in my mind that this second, very different, breathwork was completing the first as a direct result of the reintegration process of Shamanic Breathwork(TM). This powerful reintegration piece one of the pieces that separates Shamanic Breathwork(TM) from earlier versions, including Stan Grof's Holotropic Breathing. Without well integrating our processes, we're just left with wondering what the hell happened. It would be similar to experiencing an LSD trip (that's what it's like, without the drugs) and walking away with no understanding: not a path to greater awareness.
"Bursting out of the chaos of the black hole for the second time, I found peace in the vast expanse of the Kosmos, and the huge hands of Spirit held themselves open and loving to all...and they morphed into my hands, strong enough to hold all, but compassionate enough to know when and how to also let go..."
I want to stress that the experience is a highly altered state of consciousness, again, similar to an acid trip without the acid. This is, quite simply, the most powerful transformational work I've ever seen or experienced and highly recommend this process for anyone who is serious about transformation of themselves and the planet.
My Spirit name is Kosmic LionHeart, and I'm bringing the Shamanic Breathwork(TM) Process to Seattle in June.
Digtial image by Gary Stamper